The Conversation We Needed: Hard Truths in a Couples Session
My partner and I used psilocybin to have a conversation we had avoided for three years. It went nowhere near the way we planned.
We had been together for eight years, and for three of them there had been something unspoken between us — not a crisis, but an avoidance, a topic we circled without entering. Both of us had done psilocybin separately before. We agreed to try it together.
The session did not go according to the plan we had in our heads. We spent the first two hours in separate rooms, each going somewhere inward we hadn't expected to go. When we came back together, we were both softer and different from our normal selves in ways that made the conversation possible.
The conversation that happened was not the one we had planned to have. It was more difficult and more honest. There were things said that took weeks of processing afterward. None of it was cruel — psilocybin doesn't seem to make people cruel — but it was direct in a way our sober conversations hadn't been.
We are still together. The relationship changed, which I think was necessary. Not the dramatic rupture I had feared, but a recalibration. We talk about things now that we didn't talk about before. That's what we got from the session, even if it wasn't what we were looking for when we went in.
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